Brian Matthew Kessler

Sorry about my manner of addressing you. Let me make it quite clear that I have no delusions that you are not a number, you are a free man. Strike that... if you were a man, free or otherwise, I would not be writing this letter... you are not a number, you are a free woman... somehow that doesn't sound aesthetically pleasing, but I will ignore that for the moment. The reason I address you in such a poor manner is obvious... I have no other way of addressing you... something I hope that you shall decide to amend.

I am 19 (but look like I'm in my mid twenties and think like I'm at least in my thirties). I have long dark brown hair that gets tints of red with the coming of the summer sun. I have hazel eyes that shift from brown to green. I am 5'8" and weigh 130 lb. My build is fairly good, due mostly to good genetics and an excessive amount of walking, but I am by no means a body builder. Most women I have know have know have found my appearance to be "hot", "cute", "handsome", "adorable", or other such things, although most of the ones I have found myself interested in usually decided that I wasn't their type. I'd send you a photo, but I have none, so if you want to see what I look like, either you'll have to use your imagination on the given data, or meet me and see for yourself.

In terms of education, I graduated from Union High School (which is supposed to be one of the best public schools in the country, but I thought was one of the biggest jokes in the country) as 33 out of 386. Everyone above, and many well below me worked their asses off while I enjoyed my life. Outside of book smarts, their intelligence was almost none existent (Our class valedictorian was the biggest air head I ever had the displeasure of meeting). I scored 700 on the Math section of my SATs and 510 on the English. On other A.T. tests, I scored 720, 710, and 700, respectively for Math I, Math II, and Bio I. On a Computer Science Advanced Placement test, I achieved a 5, which was the highest possible score and was the only person in the history of the school ever to achieve such. During my education in Union, my courses were always the honors, academicly talented, and advanced placement courses (the last group of courses were college level courses which Seton Hall gave credit for).

I went on to Stockton State College with a full tuition scholarship from the school and $1,000 a year from the state (for four years as long as I went to New Jersey schools). I took various courses, mostly in Math and planned to become a computer scientist. Finding computers too easy, and math in general too boring, I decided to change my major completely. Finding pine trees boring, I decided to change my school, too.

Over the summer, I took theatre courses at both Kean College and the New School For Social Research.

I took last semester off, due to missing the transfer deadline at Hunter, however this semester I will be attending Hunter and taking courses in religion, mythology, writing, and media. Eventually, I will probably major in theatre or possibly anthropology, but I want to search around a bit before I lock myself into anything.

I am among the most honest people I know. The only times I will consider lying is when A) The lie has nothing to do with me and I have nothing to either lose or benefit from it (such as telling my dad's creditors that he is not home), B) The person who wants to know has no business knowing and is being an asshole about it (such as when certain aquaintences of mine were trying to find out private information about me), and C) When someone's life is on the line (such as telling someone moments after I tried to kill him, that I didn't try killing them, when I intentionally whaled him in the back of the neck with a studded bracelet because he was an asshole)... and just because I would consider lying, doesn't mean I would do it.

Furthermore, I hate being lied to. It is the only effective way to piss me off... physical pain to my own body doesn't phase me nearly so much as lying to me. Tell me anything, just be honest about it.

I can be very compassionate with the right person, although most people are a very hard fit for that category.

I know how to love a woman emotionally and can honestly say that I feel I am one of the very few people who are at all qualified to say that... most people have little or no concept of emotional love and that is a major reason that most relationships fail.

As for physically, I am not extremely experienced, but out of the four women I have been with, only one did not find my performance to be more than pleasing and that was an extreme case with many extenuating circumstances (of which I can rightfully place most of the blame on her anatomy).

That's just about everything I can think of for now. I look forward to hearing from you soon.